A lesson

' I'm not going to call you'

His words ring in my ear

Panic set in

Then relief came

Why am i relieved ?

I ask myself

I'm gonna miss him aren't I ?

Then why this feeling

Of being able to breathe free

Of not having someone,

Who is not breathing down your back

Why the smile threatening to be free?

Why ?

I heave a sigh of frustration

Doubts clouding my mind

Making every decision questioned

Was i too naive?

Was i wrong ?

So many question unanswered

Will i ever face my true feeling ?

Or will i just turn a blind eye

©️NK

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